Is he back to me again?

I thought I could take this for a while..I don't want to reach this point and I'm never asked to feel this way. There's so much to say but I don’t know how and what to start with.

It's sad just thinking of him, knowing he is different everyday. I can't get to know him because he is never be the same..always on a different thinking / decision..and this man is unpredictable. I wish I never get into this game..a game which I am a loser..but why me? Why did I have to be this stupid..this oblivious of the situation..and where his words would take me? I tasted the hurts and pain, its really difficult for me to through that path, at least I made it, why it comes back to me again ???? I don't know how far can I compress myself....

Through the experiences of mine so called "drama"..I learned so much..yet, I'm too stubborn to stick by what's right. People say I dwell on my problems..especially when it's got to do with B O Y S..and I guess, to a certain extent..yeah, I do.

There is no end to this..and I can't hide everything I feel..and I definitely can't keep lying to myself. I just want him to be REAL for once.